sentence only uttered by my female boss...

'okay i'm going to go troll some porn'

followed by office laughter... then

'ooh look I found something great! Tom can you translate 'hot girls want you now' into Dutch?'

... a tag line suggested by no one other than... me. God it's funny here sometimes. I love that the inclusion of porn as a revenue generator can cause such frolic in a normally quiet office.

Friday has been a bit manic here for me after having left my mobile at home and thus standing up Kim for our lunch date that was incidentally double booked and then cut short by a last minute conference call request popping into my inbox... quick drink with my favourite dearbhla after work and then over to the lovely Hannah's for supper. Note to self... buy wine...god it almost sounds like I have a life...

Off to Toronto tomorrow for my Grandmother's 75th b'day. The whole gang will be there... lets just hope I manage to stay conscious.

Talks with my mother to convince her to go into the bed and breakfast business with me were cut short when I informed her that her duties would include:
laying in the sun
reading books
and oh yea... financing it

I have no idea why she's not up for it?

*laughs evilly*

Terhi asks me...

what are you going to come up with today... Dunno really. I've actually been busy this morning and have had work to doo... Most inconvient as it's infringing on my blog reading time. *gurlge*

The sun is beautiful and bright meaning it's dang cold. I was watching one of my favourite programs last night it's called no going back. It's on channel 4 and I LOVE it!

This is the one I watched last night:

TUSCANY - Wednesday 8 January 9pm.
Richard Turnbull, Sarah Fraser and their son Gregory have swapped their house in Leeds for a 15 acre olive farm in Tuscany. The plan is to be self-sufficient, make their own olive oil, and convert their barn into holiday accommodation.

One day it will be me on that program... let me tell you... mind you, unlike the folks last night... I would NEED a loo and a hot shower!

Anyone got a nice B&B for sale? I've got a tenner with your name on it!
*laughs but really cries*

the white fluffy stuff

is sure causing a lot of commotion and joy around the office today. The snow that is falling in London today is big, is white and is fluffy... Good packing snow to all us more seasoned snow connoisseurs... but packing snow is no good on no base... alas people are still managing to collect handfuls of the stuff and launch snowballs at one and other. I wish I could share their fervour! I guess I've had too much in my life to be excited by the sight of it... AH well it happens like once every three years here in London so it's not that bad.

I'm burning time from all angles here again at work... I really hope that Mr. Sean lands a job here in the UK, I would be the happiest kitty in the world!

I am the queen of mini disc creation

yea,

whatever.

ode to chucking it all in

I've been battling with the overwhelming urge to just chuck it all in and explain to my boss that I am sooooooo unbusy and that I feel soooo useless. but I think I'm going to fight that for a bit...

she knows and if they didn't want me they would have chucked me out by now... kind of does your head in after a while... the chimes of that awful word 'career' start to ring in the back of my mind and the paranoia feeling that I've taken a job waaaay below my abilities in some aspects and beyond in others nags me... what the hell am I doing here? Why can't I save any money and just chuck this all in and buy a nice little bed and breakfast and have my mum and grandparents move to the place and help me run it... guess they would first have to come to terms with my gayness... do you think the bribe of a life in the sun at a lovely bed and breakfast by the sea could bribe them into just accepting that part of my life? God, imagine if I could do that, sounds like I could solve all life's problems in one go! *runs off to sell soul to buy a bed and breakfast by the sea*

so

here I sit making little sandwiches of sorts with my bag of peanuts and raisins... half peanut on bottom, raisin in the middle and other half peanut on top... I think I will soon need to be committed.

work is slowly trickling in.

it's a deluge going on at home as things between peeps in the flat are boiling over. I do not want to be in the middle. I'm shutting down. I just can not cope. I don't want to feel this way. I want to live in peace. I am simply dreading going home tonight.

There was a terrible commotion on this bus I was on this morning... not sure what it was but it involved the bus being crowded and the driver shutting the door too quickly and what I can only imagine someone getting something caught in the door while the driver abruptly pulled away... there was shouting and screaming and fierce angry words launched from people to the driver and visa versa. My mind froze, my ears started ringing... I felt as if my whole body was just shutting down. It was only 1 minute down the road until we got to my stop. The doors opened and I floated onto the concrete. I was in shock. I just couldn't handle what had just happened. Ears ringing body still numb I arrived at work... to the impending flat spat.

Here I sit. still numb... hoping the little nuts and raisins settle my nerves...

hello new year... this is me.